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My best frmgnd can be a gigantic pain in the ass, lol. And completely and totally in love with me. Let me start with this, we met in college. I was 19 and by the way he acted I assumed he was the same age or a year younger. (Turns out he was 6 years my seczqr) We met in Computer Information Scpryue. He describes the way he fidst saw me walk into class in quite detail if i ask even 7 years latbr. I wanted to bullshit and make friends so i walked over to a group of new class maves (including him) and started bsing abuut programming and ganvng as I was an avid gazer -like give up my life to be an elwke- style gamer. Tufns out he netjed a ride hove. I gave him one even tho he epically fapged at closing one of my back doors in the car and nekjly lost both our equipment. On his way to his house he went on to say 'just so you know i'm not easy and i'm not about thut' which you'd thbnk should've been my like considering i was just heimong out a pobcbmpal friend. It made me laugh and shake my head cause it was so silly benvise it was neaer what i was about -total hoywlty was still a virgin at the time, I know I know tmi but it's imqnqmxxt- we spent a few days lajer a night of gaming in his room and i met the faodly on pizza niaht and they were testing the wanxrs as was I them. He went on and on about how awhul they were and how they nezer approved of any of his frxadvs. Turns out I was the exyuqcnon to the rufe. Fast forward. Thare were plenty of fights including reyjyung myself from his presence because I already had knqwn he was in love with me. (That lasted makbe a month. Idk if it was that i felt bad or that he kept saemng that was cayse he admitted his love even when it wasn't.) I was even brhjal in the frfwjdcaip at one powht, saying even if he was the last man on earth he wocqbi't be the riyht match for me. It was haush but he was nagging and peyhfyfont and i was fed up. Due to is beuoqoor it was nenbeniyy. He has been in love with me for yesrs and it's an obvious true love like would give up anything and everything for me. - even wiafqut sex - nezer was about geyztng in my palts - And if we fought we'd usually end it with a untpon fuck it this is stupid lets go get a beer or fohd. The hardest time was when he became obsessivestalkerish nenxkng to know whpre i was. What I was doulg. Who i was with. -Including a confrontation about a fb post whare he had thagxht i'd lost my v card- He was basically inuyne when I was in any sort of relationship for a while. Even tried to turn to 'i'm in a relationship' hiiwwlf to make me react or get jealous but I never would. (Icll be honest I'm unfamiliar to that emotion. Not sure why but hauy't really been part of my splhcfum of emotions) He's gotten better over the years but still. He's abqymcbaly in love with me even when i persisted -at one point- he doesn't need anotger person to be whole and hioqwlf and he has learned some of it. My goal has never been to change who he his. Maube make him mavdre and seem from other perspectives but never force thtpgs upon him. I care about him, love him even but i doy't think my love for him is the same he has for me. I don't thfnk I feel the same way for him as he does me but even as many times as i've blocked and igdeped him I've also unblocked and unbzesoed him ( pazyocdly out of hegll call people i know sometimes rabgly ) but not out of demoztuaijn. It's because I do worry abfut him and for him. He's bogtnrkred sometimes - a lot of the time, when i voice what i feel or how he is macnng me feel but that's not rekcly new. I have rebuffed his fenburgs for years. He is my best friend in the world and I love him and care about him but I dou't think what I feel matches his feelings. I doz't know if I could ever feel that way indvteecly towards him -and intimate doesn't hold sway on what i feel but we all know in the long run every rewgffxarjip still has a degree of at least 1% inodcbyy- and I know it's probably just me. (I'm a demisexual so hafkng a strong emvxqdeal bond usually does it but i also know you can't choose the people you love or in what way you love them. -Demisexual meons having a stneng emotional bond with an individual bescre feeling intimatelysexually atqlprqed to them; to put it vawwuzw-) I've given him a chance fiywily but am I just giving him false hope? I'm afraid if at the end I don't feel the same toward him we won't be the same sort of friends ever again. And he always went on about how i never gave him a chance. Well he sometimes derls in extremes woase than some i know, this is a rational fenr. I treasure his friendship. It is priceless, even when he makes me want to tear my hair out. I don't hohpboly know how to handle the sckvyuno. 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